{"id":306,"date":"2020-10-05T20:51:06","date_gmt":"2020-10-05T15:21:06","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/ranjith.ml\/?p=306"},"modified":"2023-03-08T04:37:12","modified_gmt":"2023-03-07T23:07:12","slug":"conflicted-me","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/blog.rvnair.in\/?p=306","title":{"rendered":"Conflicted Me"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>Me?&#8230; A Contradiction&#8230; !!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I am different, I am the same as everyone else.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Feeble whilst invincible, exquisite though hideous, vibrant yet listless.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>How could that be? Believe me I&#8217;d love to know.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Soulful although villainous, sagacious but idiotic, squalid and pure.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>More and more and also a bit more&#8230;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sincere and misleading. Rebellious and hopeless. Tender and harsh.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>A whole lacking ambivalence.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I knew best to stay unknown from the slyness.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>But I didn&#8217;t.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I lost in order to gain, and gained to sorrow over my hazy colors.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Grasping on the black that was left for me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Striving lustfully to give up on sins, I danced alone and tripped over forgotten crowds.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I said, \u201cHello, and goodbye.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I lived to love, and then loved to die.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>My best companion, my worst foe, is no one else but me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u270d \u0d1c\u0d3f\u0d24\u0d4d\u0d24\u0d41<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Me?&#8230; A Contradiction&#8230; !! I am different, I am the same as everyone else. Feeble whilst invincible, exquisite though hideous, vibrant yet listless. How could that be? Believe me I&#8217;d love to know. Soulful although villainous, sagacious but idiotic, squalid and pure. More and more and also a bit more&#8230; Sincere and misleading. Rebellious and&#8230;<a class=\"btnReadMore\" href=\"https:\/\/blog.rvnair.in\/?p=306\">CONTINUE READING<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":4,"featured_media":307,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[8],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-306","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-relationship"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.rvnair.in\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/306","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.rvnair.in\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.rvnair.in\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.rvnair.in\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/4"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.rvnair.in\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=306"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/blog.rvnair.in\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/306\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":308,"href":"https:\/\/blog.rvnair.in\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/306\/revisions\/308"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.rvnair.in\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/307"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.rvnair.in\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=306"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.rvnair.in\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=306"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.rvnair.in\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=306"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}